What a mom notices.

Dear son,

I know life seems such a struggle sometimes. I am sorry you were dealt the cards you were given. I know it seems as if you are misunderstood by so many. They see you as lazy and don't care. But dear son, I know you do. I know you are one day going to rise up from within and take the reigns of this life you have been given and move forward. Until then, I will be your mom, your advocate and your friend. I will notice the little things that make you special. I will watch you at 16 and see the 4,5,6,7,8,....year old who seemed to have been forgotten. I see the little guy who lost so much. Who just wanted a family. Who just wanted to be regular. But you are not....you are my special boy who brings a light to my life.
I occasionally glimpse your way and watch how your bottom lip quivers. You don't know it but your mom does. I see you are a joyful soul even when life gave you nothing to be joyful about. I see the little boy sitting on the couch watching TV with me, whatever home improvement show, just to be near me. I see the man you are slowly becoming. I see the gentle man you are to the ladies. I see the special gift you are to me. I see how things get jumbled up in your head and frustration begins. I see that you are trying to do well but life seems so hard at times and you slack and just give up. But son, I am waiting for the day that you rise up from within and you take full control of your life. I wait for the day that you come up out of that water a new man. I wait for the day that you understand that the very things that kept you down, will be the very things you see victory over. I am thankful dear son, that you are who you are. I wait for the day that you see that you were never alone and that the strength you gained was from your Father. I am your mom and I love you dearly. We may not look the same and sometimes that is hard, but our hearts will be forever knitted together.

Love,
Your mom.