Is it really true?

Is it really true that you love me no matter what I do?
Is it really true that you are with me through and through?
Is it really true that I can look to you?
Is it really true?

I am pondering these thoughts. I am leaving ministry for a time. A time to really reflect on why I do what I do.

So often I hear and even have said that God loves us no matter what we do. But I have yet to really believe that. Why? You wonder? Well because at the very moment I rest in that fact God loves me no matter what- someone says we need to "Do".

I think I will spend time finding out what the Lord says about this. Until then I think it is wise for me to "be" and not "do". I am not sure Americans really get what it is to be fully and completely loved by the Father. I see glimmers in people and that inspires me. For a time I need to see that in myself. I need to turn off the voices of guilt and discover the love I once had which was really the motivation for what I did.